The body disintegrates

Posted June 14th, 2009 by Jane

I feel my body getting older, frailer and iller. On Friday I woke up in pain which reached the no 10 threshold. My shoulder and the back of my arm felt like they were gripped in a vice. I couldn’t move without dramatic wincing. Three hours I lay rigid in bed until the pain suddenly stopped, the vice was loosened.

My left arm is more swollen than ever and I just can’t lift it. At one stroke driving, shampooing with two hands, holding a fork in the left hand, have each become impossible. Dressing is not easy and exhausts me. I cannot be sure of getting up from a low chair or bench or the toilet.

The tumours in my neck are hard and sensitive to touch. They are growing bigger daily.