A reply to Supersue

Posted May 26th, 2009 by Jane

Were I to adopt a fighting spirit and declare that I am going to ‘beat’ my cancer then I would be praised as brave and inspirational. Mention that I want cancer mentioned and somehow I’m letting the side down.

I am going to die…perhaps in less than 6 months, perhaps not. …perhaps I’m calling ‘wolf’. Of course I can have ‘cancer free conversations’ I don’t think I’ve suggested otherwise. I love being alive. I am sad, angry etc etc that my death will be premature..seems to me to be a perfectly ‘normal’ response.

And for those who don’t know the elephant poem here it is:

The Elephant In The Room
By Terry Kettering

There’s an elephant in the room.
It is large and squatting, so it is hard to get around it.
Yet we squeeze by with “How are you?” and “I’m fine…
And a thousand other forms of trivial chatter.
We talk about the weather.
We talk about work.
We talk about everything else…
Except the elephant in the room.
We all know it is there.
We are thinking about the elephant as we talk together.
It is constantly on our minds.
For, you see, it is a very big elephant.
It has hurt us all.
But we do not talk about the elephant in the room.
Oh, please, say her name.
Oh, please, say “——-” again.
Oh, please, let’s talk about the elephant in the room.
For if we talk about her death,
Perhaps we can talk about her life.
Can I say “———” to you and not have you look away:
For if I cannot,
then you are leaving me alone…
in a room…
with an elephant.